In the dream, I was a nurse working on a ward. There were three beds/patients in the ward and a space where a fourth bed was supposed to be. I was standing in the room looking at the place where the bed was missing when a man dressed in overalls walks in and goes over to the empty space on the wall and begins to remove parts of the wall. Behind the wall is a wall of perspex which can be seen through and looking through it, I could see into a hidden room which looks like a stage from a theatre. This hidden room is dark and run down and covered in spiderwebs and rats and moths etc. Its been hidden for a long time by the state of it. Looking up at the roof, there is a hole in the ceiling through which you can see the sky, and an eagle is bomb diving through it picking up the vermin from off the floor and flying back out through the hole to discard the vermin.
A strange dream, but one I have been thinking about. Its such a picture of my life, of my psyche trying to wake me up n tell me something.... Maybe its God trying to get through to me too. Have I closed off an area of my life and ignored it for a long time, allowing it to become run down, ruined and festering? Well yes. For a long time now I have been functioning in my career roles, church roles and family roles and somehow neglected this "staged" part of my person. So what is this staged part of me??? UHM mm well Im not totally sure but I think its the creative part of my being, the performer in me! Im not sure if this is the proper interpretation of this dream, but I think thats what I can read into it.
When I think of a stage, I think about performance. I associate a lot of things with performance.... acting, singing, dancing, playing the piano or guitar, reciting a poem. Lots of things... I love to perform and I love to be the centre of peoples attention. Ive done all of the above at different times in my life, and most of them Ive enjoyed in one form or another. Ive enjoyed showing off, being a drama queen, attention seeking etc. But along with maturity and personal growth, I have come to view this as immaturity, neediness, selfishness and an unhealthy mindset - thus I have deliberately shut it off..
Its been so long since Ive dabbled in these areas that I forget what I would have loved to do most. But considering my gut feelings, I don't identify with any of these anymore.This part of my life, the creative part has been ignored for a long time, and the small opportunites for creative expression have been boxed into academia, work, church life and family - all pretty closed, self limiting areas.
I presume, the purpose of the dream is to draw my attention to this neglected area, so that I can refresh and restore it to its rightful place in my life and in Gods perfect plan for me. But how ? And can I implement the restoration , or is it beyond my control. Do I just give this over to God and wait for his intervention or am I required to do something too...? Seems like this is a clean up job I need to be apart of, but I am at a loss of how and what to do . Either way, I realise I m not in control and need divine assistance to problem solve this dream.
So now Im attempting to discover some wise way to introduce a major clean up and revelation of the stage and performance areas of my life..what ever they may be. So hears to finding out the right way to do this, and to embarking apon a journey of entertaining/ performing in a Godly, selfless and mature way.
